Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Rusty Devices

Deduct a difference embrace a change

Position a splint between insanity and sane

Rusty devices just at arms reach

Tools to separate my skin from me

Dig into flesh to release the poison

Breathe of euphoria with senses so heightened

Sick with myself and entirely down

Seeking happiness from anyone around

Structure is gone disorder now lurks

The mis-managed thoughts brings me to my knees

Pride abolished by misunderstood motives

Resulting in the same outcome beholden

Crave my life that allows me to see

The positive informative useful employee

A life all alone with someone at home

Succumbing to pain that propels the unknown

Hope remains but I am defeated

I need someone else to hold me when weeping

I cant explain the way I feel

Without conveying it all so unclear

Travel back in timejust hit reset

Undue all the fighting, regrets lets forget

I just want happiness more than any other thing

Frantically hoping to be saved by my queen

How do I change when my soul is not well

Ive already resigned that my existence is hell

The easy solution ever so present

Just end it all by accepting a death sentence

Wrap me in a blanket and ill weep in joy

That youve saved me and rebirthed lifes playful noise

For I am blind, deaf and depressed

Waiting on loves beautiful kiss

Ive stomped it out living like a ghoul

Please help me I cant help myself no more

I dont want to be remembered for being down

I instead want to be saved and make everyone proud.

randy sturridge


Fred said...

Good Write Randy, really enjoyed it. Thought the ending was great touch

Randy Sturridge said...

Thank you sir...ha for commenting at all. I feel as though I might have to put disclaimers on my last few posts to clarify to everyone that this is written with a state of mind considered, not literally felt. I try to manifest the feeling for the writing...Am not depressed, just attempting to convey the voice for others. A short disclaimer would allow others to feel safe to comment and not frightened of a response...So thank you good sir...appreciate it.

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I'm glad that I was able to change your initial reaction...I have seen that you are quite the traveler among a range of subjects. I am still attempting to determine what I will be doing specific to blogging. This is a personal blog however I do intend to develop a new one as a means to an end eventually...This of course has yet to take full shape.