Thirst 

as it goes I sit here idly

fulfilling my end, yet feeling quite empty

Most would say I'm responsible enough

Security intact, knows what to do

I don't understand why I'm so troubled

Comparable sure to the ol average joe

Just making a living with little unknowns

Trying to figure if Im actually complete

or have I resigned to blend with the masses

Once upon a time I thrived to excel

At work, in school, at every thing hell

I know for a fact I've stopped craving life

By that I mean theres no thirst left inside

Why did it leave and where did it go

Will it return and how do I know

It is normal and is this a phase

I really do hope it comes back some day.

Randy Sturridge

My Little Knobby Knees

A day like any other, a day ill never forget

You are buckled in, little knobby knees

Elmo on your left and a window to your right

I see you, I know you, I love you

Those big brown eyes find me, standing in the lot

My heart is beating, my thoughts all over

You are buckled in, with your toys packed away

A day like any other, A day I feared would come

You are my girl, my happiness and my smile

You are buckled in and hands wave good bye

Hugs to some, words for others, but you…

I tell you I see you later, and time to go on ride

I know you don’t understand, I am here right now

I give you kisses and also elmo, touch your hair and face

I back on down and wave to you…Hi, do you see

I hear the Uhail roar to life, My eyes are watching you

I crane my neck and move about…hi burger

Soon your face is out of view, you are moving on

I watch the truck until its gone, with you buckled in

My heart and soul cry in silence, tears the only clue

My niece, my treasure, my little Ari Ann

Please remember me…however long it takes

I will be at the door one day, to see that sunshine face

Please burger.., I wish I could explain

I would never leave lone, never in this life

My God this hurts so bad inside…

Remember my face and the love we shared

29 months and 5 days. You were the spark that brought me back

Stay close to mommy and daddy on your adventure all brand new

Don’t forget Uncle Randy, My face and love for you

I swear to you baby girl, I’ll be there your whole life

You will open the front door and see me seeing you.

I love you Ari-Ann Carmean with everything that I am. I am so, so sorry that we will not be able to play “ready, Ready,” “Up-Down” “Elephant,” “Hide and Seek,” and so many more...No more Yo Gabba Gabba, and feeding elmo for a while. Just keep me fresh in that little head. I will skype you whenever I can. I will come visit as soon as humanly possible. I love you little girl. You’re a cool dude, and very funny funny.

I love you.

Randy